Its time for a change:

When I weighed myself today I was 185lbs and since December I have gained 30lbs. I don't say this as a victim because for the past several months I've known what has gone in my mouth and I understood the repercussions of my actions, yet I continued to abuse my body. But set aside from my horrible eating habits, I am a very active person. I love to run; it is my release, it is my calm in a treacherous storm and my sunset at the end of a already wonderful day. As a matter of fact, I just ran a 1/2 a marathon last Sunday. But I recognize that I am missing the key component to my success; nutrition. So I decided to go see a therapist because I also recognize that I use food as a weapon and a reward ~and apparently this isn't healthy. I am making strides and learning more about  myself and thought this is a great forum and outlet for change. And so I am writing this blog to grow in my nutrition, my running and lose this weight that has been holding me back. I've never been a small girl by any means, but I look forward to being fit and healthy. This is my opportunity to make myself accountable without paying for expensive weight loss programs like I have in the past. I have the tools and now its time to use them. So here I go! Before pictures will come next...I think that is the first step to acknowledging the road I have to travel...