Preparation and Acceptance...Two Challenging Combinations!

So the first step at improving ones self is acceptance. For the past few months I've been trying to avoid the fact my jeans are tighter, I have muffin top when I where my dress pants, and no matter how much I suck in my gut, that fupa won't get any smaller. I also have had been weighing myself in hopes that the scale made a terrible mistake and that I really truly am not in the 180s and the next time I hop on I will be significantly less. I ran four miles yesterday and found that I'm a little more tired then I have been in past runs. So today, I'm going to do something crazy! Post my before picture. Now I've never shared my before pictures before...I just took the pictures and of course it was a constant reminder to me personally of the changes I needed to make. But in order to keep myself accountable, I  must lay everything on the line. This is the only way I will grow and change for the better. I'm embarressed by this picture...and feel very humbled as well. I am a mad at myself for giving up on my eating habits and throwing in the towel. I have paid thousands of dollars for many different weight loss programs just to end up right back where I started...so here it is, here I am as I move forward and change.